I made it.

I'm really proud of myself. I have done something beyond what i'm expected. and it turns out in very good result. it makes me more confidence and tougher now.
Thanks for all those peoples tat supported me a lot. I really appreciated.

喜歡你現在的樣子 -- 黃韻玲

I likes the way i am....

Life change time to time, but i kinna like the way i am at this moment.
Many people thinking of changing their life to be what they want. But for me, i don think it is necessary deliberately to make changes in life.

What is the changes for most people make in life?
Could be change of attitude.
Could be change of the style of living.
Could be change of the way of thinking.

Trust me! Those people who always make changes of life is someone who lack of confidence of them self.

You should be proud to be your self. Be confidence who you are now. I knew life has never been the same. But still you are who you are. Just follow your heart songs i would say. Cos life is short. Make it as meaningful as possible.

There is many repentant in our life. Please do not let it happen again. Grab every opportunity that came across into our life. Do not be afraid of take the chances. Although you fail, although it did not work out. But still, there is a process you been trough. Enjoy the process no matter it is bitter or sweet. I strongly believed that you will gain a lot from it.

Do not draw a guide line to limit yourself or to structure your future.I believed that will make your life harder. Some people i knew, they like to plan their future. How they going to achieved their goal, to plan life that he/she want. But at the end, things came out not so beautiful as they thought. They end up with a lot of debts or unhappy life. Not to say that im discourage you to get something that you want or something you like. Just that do not let the desire to guide you in your life. Let things happen naturally. You will find that you will have a awesome experience of life.

Experience, is something that people can not take away from you. It is a memories of life.It also a lesson of life.Im sure that we need these memories or those lesson to make a smoother away to the future. So do not be afraid.

This is the 3rd month i lost my Iphone. Yes, at 1st i wan really sad about it. But, slowly i realize that i missed a lot of beautiful moment in life and i too depends on my gadget. Now without my Iphone, i write my agenda in to my organizer, I started to remember all the phone number that i use to deal.
Usually during free time, I will be on my mobile facebook. But now, i start to look around, i found that there are so many things that i did not even realize is been there for awhile. See! From Iphone 3Gs tp Iphone 4. How many wonderful things i missed? I felt sorry to myself. I wasted my life for so many years.

Im now a person who use to all the 'manual' life. I write down my agenda, i read books before i sleep, i talk to my family when we having dinner. I listen to music when waiting friends. I kinna like this kind of life. No doubt it is inconvenience without Iphone. But is ok. i will get use to it. Cos i understand that Iphone is just a WANT but not a NEED in life.

Heartsong

I have a song, deep in my heart and only i can hear it.
If i close my eyes and sit very still, it is so easy to listen to my song.
When my eyes are open and i am so busy and moving, if i take time and listen very heard, i still hear my Heartsong.

It makes me feel happy, Happier than ever. Happier than everywhere and everything and everyone in the whole wide world. Happy like thinking about going Heaven when i die.

My Heartsong sounds like this...
La~ La~ La~ I Love You!
How Happy You Can Be!
How Happy You Can Make!
This Whole World Be!

And sometimes it's other tunes and wards too.
But it always sings the same special feeling to me.
It makes me think of one of my friend who had gone to heaven years ago and also other wonderful things.

This is my special song. But do you know what?
All people have a special song inside their hearts!
Everyone in the whole wide world has a special Heartsong.

If you believed in magical, musical hearts, and if you believed you can be happy.
Then you, too, will hear your song.

I would like to thanks God.
Not just for life, but for journey through life.
Life is a miracle and journey through life.
Is so full of so many more miracles if we travel with our Heartsongs.
Thanks God, for blessing me with the gift of Heartsongs, so that i can enjoy my miracle.

Poverty. My destiny ?

How long more to suffer from the poverty life that im having now?
Can i have an answer for that?
Everyday was like living without any direction.
Every morning when eyes open the first thing in mind is how much i can earn for today?

Where is my olden days? days that have joy.
Life that never have to worried about bills, payment, expenses ect...
Life that i choose is the difficulty way.
Not to say that im not happy with it, just that feeling really tough and tied.

If i have a second choice, i wouldn't pick this way. I missed quite some of very good opportunities.
I felt wasted, but im ok with it. Cos i have a good friend that always standby me.
We chosen the same destiny. But so far we still manage to overcome it. BUT, how long will it last?
We never know.

Everyday for us is another challenge. To fight with poverty.

Fear in me...

Some times I was thinking, what have I done wrong? Why I deserved those faces and attitude?
I may be not the perfect one, but I have done my very best to fulfill whatever it takes.

Things seem to be getting worst. I have no idea how am I gonna react. I’m not that person who chose to escape when facing difficulty, but I’m now feeling like wanna run away from this. Am I depressed? Yes! Am I upset? Yes! Nothing can make it better unless I just turn around and walk away.

I had feelings that I won be long in this universe, my heart is bleeding, my body is swollen, I have no strength to defense no more….

I don’t wanna broke anyone’s heart, I don’t wanna give any difficulty to anyone. That’s why I kept quiet.
I remain silence doesn’t mean I agree, I shut my mouth don’t mean that I know nothing. Is just that I don want to create any conflict between us. It is because I wan a peaceful environment.

I’m terrified! I scared of the darkness fall; I’m scared the thunder of yours. Stop doing that, cos I’m scared. I can’t take those pressure no more….
 

The world~

Been living for so many years on earth, slowly i realize that the world is bored.
no to say that i don like the world that im living now, but the human being are getting very fake nowadays.
sometime i wonder, what made people nowadays so fake. Is it the media? influence by their parents?  influence by their friends or the education method ?